Thursday, March 01, 2007

A Day For Remembering......

Well, here it is, March 1st 2007, the official anniversary of Connor's long-term admittance to Children's Hospital. Even though there had been numerous ER visits, overnight visits and even a 1 week stay at Mary Bridge Hospital last year between Connor's birth and the first of March, today is the day that we will remember forever because it launched a journey that we certainly did not buy a ticket for.

Today there is snow on the ground in so many places of Western Washington, but last year it was unseasonably warm and Randy was out mowing our lawn for the first time of the year. It was warm and I remember wanting to plant flowers that day. Randy was preparing to leave for a 2 week military trip that departed the next day so he was busy, busy, busy with getting the yard ready so I wouldn't have to worry about it. I remember noticing throughout the day that Connor seemed a bit warm, but we just pushed it off on the weather until late afternoon, when I was on the phone with the pediatrician and every time I took his temp it kept going higher and higher. In a panic I took him to the doctor and it was confirmed that he needed to go to Children's. How I remember that drive back home to our house to say goodbye to Randy and pack a small bag for Connor and I. Who knew it would literally be months before we were back in our home, sleeping in our own beds. I remember the uncertainty in saying goodbye to Randy and the tears that fell that night as we worried in separate cities for our little boy.

I remember getting to Children's and parking in the ER lot hoping that we would not have to stay. I was met there by my sister-in-law, Maureen (who, by the way, was a HUGE support and encouragement during all of our hospital days!!!) and we waited in the ER for any kind of word on what was going on with Connor. How I wish I would have known then that an explanation would not be in the cards for us for months. Our Little Bug suffered silently and anonymously for so long as he baffled all the doctors and nurses. Those first few days he was such a fighter. He fought and he fought until that dreadful day on March 6th when we rushed him to the ICU and we almost lost our precious son. Oh, just remembering makes my heart sick and my eyes begin to pool up with tears.

And then I look across the room at our Little Bug playing with his toys and bouncing in his bouncy seat and I have to say, "Thank you Lord for the miracle of our son!" His life was spared on numerous occasions because of the prayers of God's people and the merciful nature of our Heavenly Father. I am humbled by my memories today and of the friendships that we made with precious families at Children's Hospital and of the little angels that hover above us as their journey took them into the arms of our Lord. There are many who still struggle. There are many who still grieve. There are many who rejoice. There are many who are still in the battle with illness and disease. May we never forget our journey and the road we have traveled and those we have met along the way.

"Oh Lord, we rejoice because you are a good God. We trust in you still and we remain in your hands. Protect the children near and far and hold them close to your heart. Thank you for our journey with Connor, although we didn't ask for it, it was your will that we travel it and it is your will that we continue upon the road to healing. Lift up our heads to see your plan with our precious son and thank you for this day that we remember how it all started." Amen!

Lovebug Hugs,
Randy & Lori

10 comments:

The Imperfect Christian said...

God is good!!! Happy anniversary! It's awesome to see how far you've come and what a different place you stand in now (even if it is only the difference between a hospital room and your very own kitchen!)

Shannon and Carey said...

Celebrating with you!

mum2brady said...

what a wonderful post Lori! Your family and Connor are an inspiration to us, and we know indeed that God has big plans for your little guy!!! We continue to keep him in our prayers and are soooo glad that he is home and doing so well - yayyyyy!

Anonymous said...

Lori
Thanks for sharring this. As I read this I remembered hearring about much of this from your mom. It is impossible to think that all of this was 1 yr ago. It is so overwhelming to look at God's faithfulness, this is so encouraging to me today. THanks again for sharring your heart with all of us.
Love
Tammy

Bug said...

Connor you are such an amazing little boy, you are surrounded by love all the time, and even though you have had this hard journey, you have made it. And Im sure with all the love and prayers you will continue to be the blessing you are! I Love You little bug :) Sheila

Princess Morgan said...

What an adventure you have taken us all on this past year. Thank the LORD you are here with us. You have touched so many lives, Connor! We look forward to watching you grow up and be a big brother. You will have many things to teach your younger sibling (not to mention all of us).

Izabell said...

connor we are so happy you are doing well and very thankful to have met you and your family! Lori you helped so many families while at the hospital with your strength and kind words:) Connor always keep fighting!

Jo Ann Collins said...

It is with gratitude to our wonderful Lord that we consider the past year and what He has brought you through. Your lives through this time have been such a beautiful example of how God is with us, even in the dark times. I am sure there are many times when you questioned why God was allowing this but what a blessing Connor's life has been to so many and now you have a great army of bloggers, churches, friends & of course family who have been there to witness your journey and stand behind you in prayer. Thanks for updating us from time to time. Your blog was so beautiful, I hope you have kept a copy of all you blogs. You can write a book someday!!! Praying for an easy delivery and healthy new little sister (or brother, as the case may be). These last few weeks can seem long. Love to all 4 of the Robertsons. JoAnn & Rip

Debi said...

PRAISE GOD.... What a journey you have been on and reflecting I remember how difficult this past year was...However God is faithful and many prayers were answered...

Thank you for taking the time to blog I so enjoy reading....

I pray that your next few weeks awaiting the arrival of your new precious baby things go smoothly...I pray for continued progress for you Little Bug Connor...

Life is so precious enjoy...
Blessing to all of you...

Debi

Heather said...

What a journey you all have been on. Isn't it a blessing to look BACK and see where God has held, sustained, provided, nurtured, healed and LOVED you all? I am so amazed at God's goodness. I love you dearly.

Miss you!
Love you!
Auntie Heather #2 :)