Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Roller Coaster Ride......

Waking up this morning to sunshine was a delight!!! It reminds me of being a kid in summertime and peeking out the window first thing in the morning to see what the weather was like. After seeing sunshine, we could decide what outdoor activities the day would hold and what adventures would occupy the moments of the day. I remember being on vacation in California and waking up and my Uncle & Aunts house and saying, "It's a roller coaster day!" You see we were going to DisneyLand for the first time and I knew that we would have great laughs riding the rides....especially the roller coaster. There's nothing quite like a roller coaster experience. It's fast (I love that!). It's high. It's low. The wind speeds by and you can hardly catch your breath. The breeze messes up your hair and you really have the feeling of being alive with excitement.

I am finding out that it really is true that being in the ICU is like a roller coaster ride. Yesterday was a high moment on the ride. We could see the view from the top peak and it was beautiful. We could see the horizon, far off, but we could see it and it took our breath away. We smiled and laughed and had the most fun!!! Today we dipped, once again, into the valley of the ride. Connor had a major downward spiral today. When I saw him first thing this morning he had been "freaking out", as the nurse put it, for 2 hours. I was able to hold him and calm him down for about a half hour and then he started up again. His temperature shot up to about 103 and his heart rate hovered between 180 and 201 for the next two hours. Even with a shot of morphine, he couldn't be consoled. After that, they sent in the lab people to draw blood to figure out what the trouble was. His carbon dioxide levels were extremely elevated and his work of breathing warranted a further look by the respitory therapist. They decided to give him help with the c-pap again and see if he would calm down. So at the moment he has had another shot of morphine, is back on the c-pap and is about to start a new round of antibiotics to fight whatever infection is growing in him. When the blood cultures were drawn, there was some concern about the level of his white count. I am waiting for further explanation on this, as of the moment I know nothing more than there was a concern.

Our roller coaster ride has ceased to be fun today, but we have the hope that another mountain top is just around the corner for our Little Bug!!! Please pray that he could be at peace and comfortable the rest of the day. It has been quite an eventful morning.

Lovebug Hugs,


Auntie Maureen said...

Lori, Randy, and Little bug guy,
I have to say that I am personally not a roller coaster person. Ask Larry!! If he wants to go on one he goes it alone!! Unless Kyle is with him. One thing I am learning through your adventure and what Connor is teaching me is to never give up on hope. Patience, faith, and perseverence all play a part in that. Lori, you know I am not a deep philosophier, in fact I can't even spell it right, but I do know what God has said " and these three: faith, hope, and love and the greatest of these is love." That is what we have in our hearts for you, Randy, and our precious Connor. I pray you will feel our love in your heart lifting you up to the next mountain.
We love you all so much,
Love Maureen

mel said...

Hi Lori,
I have been what is called a 'lurker' in the blog world. I stumbled across you blog by chance, but was so drawn to pray for you, your husband and Conner. I wanted to encourage you and let you know that even though we have never met, I am praying for little Conner(and he is SO cute by the way!)Just be enncouraged and know that the more you praise God for all Conner's victories, the angrier the enemy gets and the more he tries to get you down. But is bigger and stronger and His will, will prevail.Keep on praising! What a blessing it is for Conner to have praying, praising parents like you and your husband!

mel said...

Sorry, I meant God is bigger and stronger and His will will prevail.