Thursday, April 20, 2006
"Little Bug" Thoughts For Today.....
I often have little conversations with my ladybug, but today, I decided to have a conversation with all of you, my blogger friends.
So this is what daddy and mama keep talking about....Blogging!!!! I guess this is where I can talk about all my thoughts, and then all my friends get to send me comments in return. Wow, how neat!!! No wonder they are addicted to coming up here to check for messages! I hear them talk a lot about how much this little blog site encourages them and how they love hearing from all our friends and family, now I finally get it. I think I'm an official blogger now.
I love how you all call me little bug!!! I especially like it when daddy and mama whisper "little bug, I love you" in my ear. I hear that A LOT!!!!! I know one thing is for certain, I may be a little bug in stature, but I'm a big bug in heart!!!!! And, I have lots of big bug thoughts!!! You see, I've been watching my daddy and mama be worried about me for a long time now. They hover over me and swoon side to side to make sure I'm OK. They peek in on me real close to make sure I'm breathing, or to make sure I'm warm and dry. I don't think they realize that I'm aware of every word that is spoken and every time their strong, safe hands touch me. I love that they protect me the way they do.
I guess I've had some pretty scary episodes that have frightened them quite a bit. I wish I had the words to tell them that Jesus whispered a secret to me the other day. He told me that I was going to grow to be a big strong boy real soon. I had to laugh a little when he told me that because my mama tells me that story all the time when she holds me. She tells me about what it will be like when I grow up to be a big strong boy and how I will have such a testimony to tell all the world of how God healed my heart and made me strong. I'm not sure what a testimony is right now, 'cause I'm only 3 months old, but I'm pretty sure it means something really good.
The other day my daddy and mama had to say goodbye to me in a big long hallway and they were crying. I wish I could have told them not to be sad and that I would be right back to them, but they had to wait for lots of hours before I came back. While I was away from them I went to a big white room, I guess they call it an operating room. I didn't know that bugs could go into operating rooms, but apparently it's a good place for them to go to feel better. Anyway, while I was in that big, bright room the people that were in there had to open up my chest to help me with some difficulties that I'm having. It was pretty chilly in that big room and I wanted to shout at the top of my lungs, "Hey guys, can you shut the windows, it's cold in here!!" I knew I was inside because I could see walls, but it was a curious thing to me that I could feel wind on my skin. So I peeked open my eyes, and to my amazement I saw what seemed to be an army of angels fluttering their wings round about my bed. Well what do you know, their wings were creating that wind that I felt on my little bug skin, and suddenly I didn't feel cold anymore. I just felt the warm wind of healing spread all over my little bug shell. Because I'm such a little bug you'd think it would have scared me to open up my eyes and see flying creatures around me, but Oh no....I may be a little bug, but I have a gigANTic amount of bravery. I looked those angels right in the face and we all had a little talk. They introduced themselves and everything.
My favorite angel was named "Herman". Herman told me that he has known me since the day I was born. He was a funny angel too. He talked to me about how he was there when they gave me to my mama for the first time and how she said "I'm a mommy" with tears in her eyes. He also told me about how my daddy helped the doctors deliver me from mama's tummy. I didn't know that the first hands to touch me were my daddy's hands. But Herman knew, because he was there. He also told me about the first day I met my dog Abbey. I guess it was quite an introduction and she even licked my head!!! I really thought that was funny.
Herman started introducing me to all the other angels and I realized I recognized all of them. Some had known me from the naps I would take at home where they would protect me as I slept and I remembered that they stood watch over my cradle. Some knew me from the hospital where they hovered around the doctors and nurses and whispered to them to be gentle with me. So you see, I realized that all these angels were there to keep me company and protect me while my daddy and mama couldn't be there. I thought to myself, "WOW, what cool parents I have that they went to all this trouble to employ the help of hundreds, even thousands of angels to be with me." Then, I looked up and saw a new face. I asked, "When did you get here?" And the voice answered, "I've been with you all along!" And as I looked closer, I knew that face too!! It was Jesus. We had gotten to know eachother so well when I was in my mama's tummy and I had to say goodbye to Him on the day that He sent me to my daddy and mama. He reached down and touched my heart and I think it tingled a little bit. He assured me that He had never left my side and that although I may be having a bit of a struggle right now, everything was going to be OK and I was going to grow up to be a big strong boy!! He really knew how to rally those troops of angels, by the way. They started singing and rejoicing the second He started talking to me because they believed what he was saying. And I believe it too!! I know that Jesus is going to continue to help me grow big and strong.
About the time the singing started, I knew I was about to go away from that big white room. I quickly said goodbye to the army of angels and Herman tucked back under my covers. You see he's my personal guardian angel and he goes with me everywhere. We wheeled back down that long hallway and before I knew it, my daddy and mama were looking at me and they were even kissing my feet. They didn't think I could feel them, but I knew they were there. Everyone let me get some sleep after that, but before I really fell into a deep sleep, Herman popped back out and told me a secret. He said the only explanation he could give for that army of angels I saw in that big white room, was that there is a whole army of people praying for me, and God decided to dispense an angel for every person that was praying at that moment I was in the operating room. I just think that it great, I have an army of angels and an army of prayer warriors. I've never doubted for a moment that God had a plan for me, and now after my operating room experience I know it's a great big plan that only this little bug can accomplish!!!
Stay tuned because I have lots more bug thoughts that I will share with you. By the way, thanks mama for typing for me, I don't think the ICU nurses would have appreciated me jumping out of my bed and heading for the keyboard.