Thursday, March 23, 2006
I take great delight in you...
Today was such a great day with Connor. I sat for hours holding him and cradling him and at one point in the afternoon I whispered in his ear, “Little bug, I take great delight in you!” As I watched his every breath and his every movement and twitch I was overwhelmed with delight. I just looked up the word delight in the dictionary (my mom would be proud!) and this is what it said, “To find enjoyment in, to take pleasure in, to find pleasing to the eye, to be excited to behold, and to fill ones countenance with joy!! Wow, that is exactly how I felt today. I found delight in the tracking of his eyes with mine. I took pleasure in his ability to snuggle into the crook of my arms and fall off to sleep. I was excited to behold my beautiful boy and I found him incredibly pleasing to my eyes. It’s amazing how one little life, Connor’s little life, has changed me from the inside out and filled me with more love than I ever thought possible.
Being a mother now, I find myself gushing with a waterfall of love for Connor. How can such an innocent child capture your heart and melt your heart all at the same time?? What an amazing gift our son is!! He is teaching me so much about the way God loves us. I was just talking with a friend last night and I was sharing with her that I have to say thank you to Connor so often because he is teaching me so much about Jesus. Even as I write this blog I am reminded of the scripture in Psalm 149:4a that says, “For the Lord takes delight in His people…” And to think that my love for Connor is just a tip of the iceberg of God’s great love for us. I believe that this is one of many lessons that Connor has in store for his mama. I look forward to each new realization and to each special truth that our little bug will teach us. Thank you Lord for this wonderful illustration of your love for us.
As I was searching for the scriptures in the Psalms I also came across a great verse that seems to describe my experience over the past few weeks. Ps. 92:10 says, “But you have made me as strong as a wild bull, how refreshed I am by your blessings.” I believe this describes what God has been doing in me over the past days. I know that God is giving me the strength I need to get through each day and it’s not a common strength. It is strong as a bull!!! I have described to many of you that there are days where I can’t even feel my feet on the ground. I believe that, through all of your prayers, God is allowing me to glide through the toughest of days with a beautiful sense of grace!! And the blessings that my eyes are beholding are countless. Whether it is a small victory for Connor or whether it is bringing encouragement to another family in the waiting room, there are great and marvelous blessings that I see here.
I will leave you with this challenge before I head off to bed….Take time in your day, in your world, where you live at the moment to take great delight in those you love. If you take a minute to see them with that awe inspiring kind of love, I promise it will change the way you look at them forever. May you be captivated by your delight this very day!!